one day i won't miss you anymore

i don't know your face no more
or feel your touch that i adore
i don't know your face no more
it's just a place i'm looking for

we might as well be strangers in another town
we might as well be living in a different world
we might as well

i don't know your thoughts these days
we're strangers in an empty space
i don't understand your heart
it's easier to be apart

we might as well be strangers in another town
we might as well be living in another time
we might as well

we might as well be strangers
for all i know of you now
for all i know of you now
for all i know.

you could be happy
and i won't know.

i think you'd like my new hair
i cut it when you weren't there
that pieces of us everywhere
were falling down

my bed is now a girl's bed
pink flowers under my head
and pillows on your side instead
of you

cause that's what single girls do
don't think about you

i'm reading books on meditation
praying for my heart's salvation
i've got the motivation
to be a free girl now

i've gone drinking with the guy down the hall
put up a new color on my bare walls
i'm so damn busy
after all

i keep trying
keep trying
to make my way back to the light where i belong
but god keeps lying
saying this is for the best and nothing here is wrong

but i'm still thinking about you

i think you'd like my new hair
i cut it like i didn't care
that pieces of me everywhere
were falling down

one more glass of wine
before i turn off the lights
this time i'll be fine
i'll be fine

i watch your pretty life play out in pictures from afar

and i used to think that tied me to you in some sad, pathetic way. an invisible, whisper-thin string that i alone had the power, but not the will, to cut.

i held onto that delicate knot as tightly as i could, like a kid who's way too old for a security blanket, til it stretched and frayed. if i was honest with myself i knew you were drifting farther and farther away from me but i told myself that whatever connection we had was enough. i hung everything on it, trusting blindly that it would hold when i really knew it never did.

well, we both know it was never meant to handle the weight i gave it. i had no choice but to let go. i couldn't watch as the invisible tie between us began to unravel. i looked elsewhere for comfort, for a distraction, for anything to make it hurt less.

and surprisingly, it did. i poked at the wound to see if it still hurt. it was a little sadistic but i pressed hard, to see if there was some ounce of feeling left, some bruising left. but all i felt... was numb. detached.

the days feel lighter and tomorrow's possibilities seem endless. it feels free, almost like it never even happened, but somewhere inside me, i know a price was paid. to be honest, the other night i woke up from an old dream missing you with such crushing force that it hurt to breathe.

i still think of you as the most incredible, special person i have ever and might ever come across, who gave me a chance at friendship, as perfectly ordinary as i am. but the invisible string is gone forever, and i will be happy for you wherever you are in the world.

and i will be happy for me wherever i am in the world.