you know how they say sometimes you wake up and don't recognize the person next to you at all? that the person you married disappeared somewhere along the way, and suddenly you realize you're sleeping next to a stranger?
i loved you for so long that i didn't notice that the person you were is gone. at times i still get a hint of your former self, but mostly i can barely recall your face. and now, from an unbearable distance away, i'm still grasping at your empty shell; a shadow of who you were.
i spent so much of my short adulthood loving you that i barely know how to be without it. it fueled so much of who i became--my hopes and dreams, my fears and insecurities. the truth is, i'm a little lost without you. but i'll learn.
